I guess I am just not the one you would open up when your feeling down or so.
Why do I dislike you so much?
1. You make me jealous
2. You are always the source that causes the problem
3. So what if you know my bee longer.
4. You are sayang-ing my bee
I am not jealous because of you. I am jealous that I did not get to see the bee the way you see - The way my bee always was. Sometimes I just wish I was you. You make my bee smile more then I get too. You comfort my bee all the time. Maybe if you wouldnt have give up last time, you guys will be just perfect.
Why do I always get the frowns the hidden secrets, or the clueless mind? Am I sensitive or maybe Im not.
Nothing is perfect and so is nobody is perfect.
Love is a true mental illness.
I am trying in all ways to not bother about you. I know you have nothing with my bee but I just dislike you. Since I have my own, I shal not complain. Close friends. I just have to be understanding and believe in fate. Thinking too much ruins everything.
Loving you was suppose to be a happy thing but why do I feel like im not making you happy. I feel like I am causing more pressure for you. Making your life even more dramatic.
I just need to get away for a while. take a whole day out. Just myself, and maybe cameron highlands. Top of the hills with wind whispering through my ears.
beautiful
Good morning monday.
Monday, January 18, 2010
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Fearless
Oh, WHAT a breathtaking journey of twists and turns!
I am feeling really lightheaded. That same old giddy feeling. I believe that I am about to faint. Lack of glucose I guess ? Wait, lack of sleep sounds more accurate.
Everything is moving in such a breakneck pace. Chinese New Year is around the corner. wow. Time, just so amazing how it moves so rapidly. Oh time, the cradle of hope and wisdom walks before it, opportunity with it, and repentance behind it.
Interesting, it is to be in a position of stability. Still working on bad habits. Improving day by day. Rome wasn't built in a day. Miraculously, commitment is what I am in for good now. I love every single day. Yes, every single day.
Small arguments, fights, disagreements. Not a bad thing after all. Its a part of understanding.
*end*
Lately, I have been hanging out alot. Pool is love now. haha.
Frankly, I am not weird. But I feel so happy with my everyday just because of you. I never get bored. I do not know why. Damn it, you are just the light that is shining at me right now. I see you everyday. Makes me real happy.
I miss you although you just left an hour ago.
ahhhh
nights <3
I am feeling really lightheaded. That same old giddy feeling. I believe that I am about to faint. Lack of glucose I guess ? Wait, lack of sleep sounds more accurate.
Everything is moving in such a breakneck pace. Chinese New Year is around the corner. wow. Time, just so amazing how it moves so rapidly. Oh time, the cradle of hope and wisdom walks before it, opportunity with it, and repentance behind it.
Interesting, it is to be in a position of stability. Still working on bad habits. Improving day by day. Rome wasn't built in a day. Miraculously, commitment is what I am in for good now. I love every single day. Yes, every single day.
Small arguments, fights, disagreements. Not a bad thing after all. Its a part of understanding.
*end*
Lately, I have been hanging out alot. Pool is love now. haha.
Frankly, I am not weird. But I feel so happy with my everyday just because of you. I never get bored. I do not know why. Damn it, you are just the light that is shining at me right now. I see you everyday. Makes me real happy.
I miss you although you just left an hour ago.
ahhhh
nights <3
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Pure
Fairytale love. Too good to be true?
Why am I so afraid? Why do I still get all the brain irritation mumbling "nonsense" ? I am a freak when it comes to sensitivity. The suffer from indigestion of the mind. I oftenly think so much. Just a little silence or face reaction, I get so absurd. Damn, illogical.
Couples fight out of arguments, out of jealousy or whatsoever but we fight over having too much love and being afraid of losing one another. This is where "fate and believe" comes. I just want you to trust me. There is no fate, but your own fate. People pay for what they do, and still more, for what they have allowed themselves to become and they pay for it simply,by the lives they lead. It is all in the mind. Mistakes are meant to happen. Learn from it and try not to fall.
To live, it is not breathing, it is action.
I never believe I would ever find a love so full of passion and joy. Here I am, having the most wonderful lovely other half. My forehead is glowing. My smile is wider. Oh, love is a wildly misunderstood although highly desirable malfunction of the heart which weakens the brain, causes eyes to sparkle, cheeks to glow, blood pressure to rise and the lips to pucker. Do you not see how powerful you are against me. GREAT.
The ultimate test of a relationship is to disagree but to hold hands. No?
Everything I do now, I see a path. A light shining through me. I feel so in placed. Everything about you make me feel so alive. Gosh, I feel so happy. watthemotherfuck. I have been expressing so much and it all ends up in the same meaning of "jess, you are just so fking in love".
This sounds really over-reacting but what I need to live has been given to me by the earth. and why I need to live has been given to me by you. Oh yes, family comes first but my the other half is second.
I just can't wait for time to pass a lil faster. I just cant help thinking how annoying we are. It is just so cute. The only reason why sometimes I wanna keep a distant, is because I am afraid you will get bored of me and who knows, I might realyl be annoying to you one day. AWW
see you in a while.
kiss
Why am I so afraid? Why do I still get all the brain irritation mumbling "nonsense" ? I am a freak when it comes to sensitivity. The suffer from indigestion of the mind. I oftenly think so much. Just a little silence or face reaction, I get so absurd. Damn, illogical.
Couples fight out of arguments, out of jealousy or whatsoever but we fight over having too much love and being afraid of losing one another. This is where "fate and believe" comes. I just want you to trust me. There is no fate, but your own fate. People pay for what they do, and still more, for what they have allowed themselves to become and they pay for it simply,by the lives they lead. It is all in the mind. Mistakes are meant to happen. Learn from it and try not to fall.
To live, it is not breathing, it is action.
I never believe I would ever find a love so full of passion and joy. Here I am, having the most wonderful lovely other half. My forehead is glowing. My smile is wider. Oh, love is a wildly misunderstood although highly desirable malfunction of the heart which weakens the brain, causes eyes to sparkle, cheeks to glow, blood pressure to rise and the lips to pucker. Do you not see how powerful you are against me. GREAT.
The ultimate test of a relationship is to disagree but to hold hands. No?
Everything I do now, I see a path. A light shining through me. I feel so in placed. Everything about you make me feel so alive. Gosh, I feel so happy. watthemotherfuck. I have been expressing so much and it all ends up in the same meaning of "jess, you are just so fking in love".
This sounds really over-reacting but what I need to live has been given to me by the earth. and why I need to live has been given to me by you. Oh yes, family comes first but my the other half is second.
I just can't wait for time to pass a lil faster. I just cant help thinking how annoying we are. It is just so cute. The only reason why sometimes I wanna keep a distant, is because I am afraid you will get bored of me and who knows, I might realyl be annoying to you one day. AWW
see you in a while.
kiss
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