Time is moving ultimately too fast.
It is the 11month this coming 23rd. Who would have thought our one year anniversary is around the corner.
Everybody is back. Surprisingly, I do not feel that excited. Why? God knows why.geez.
Life has been pretty hectic this 4 months. From insurance, telco, f&b/hotel, here I am, working in for a buidling owner company. From learning about Human Resources and adminstration to learning about basics of accounting, I am now learning about building management. Such an eye opener for me. Great experience. 9months working and still looking for further experience with Boustead.
It has been 5 months that I have stopped cigarettes. I rarely drink too and the best part is, I finally save money. Impossible? Believe it.
My newest crave is sheesha. Starlight @ Ampang, Jalan Damai is just the best sheesha outlet that I've been. Absolutely a great place to chill and they serve great food too. Caffinees is the name of the restaurant.
I have been thinking so much lately. Im gonna be 21 in two months time. Time is catching up! And I am 50% to achieving my goals. Five more years to go. Patience is all I need to do.
Things I really need to do is, spending more time with the lord.Hard, but possible!
Things to look forward. My anni, My birthday, Meeting up with friends who came back from everywhere, and most importantly, my wimbledon!
Thats about it!
ciao!
Monday, June 21, 2010
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Steady
I like the word steady!.. "Steady sial, steady wei , steady yo". WADEVA! steady <3 .haha
Everybody's life has drama in it. A good many dramatic situations begin with screaming. You just cannot run away from drama. The more you avoid it, it gets worse. Sometimes questions often asked " Why your life got so many drama?" or you hear people gossipping "Eh, I pity him/her , she/he got so many drama".. This is an AISEH situation.
Dramatic experience is not logical. But, if you're not on somebody's shit list, you're not doing anything worthwhile.
I love my life. Therefore, I wonder why people often go "I hate my life". A life was given to you. You have a reason to be here. Dont hate the life, hate yrself for makign your life the way it is.
Like all the saying goes "appreaciate what you have now". Hell, I do. Do you?
The end.
Diary Post 1 (On Bee's Book) - I'd rather type.
Dear diary,
6 months has gone by so quickly. Yet, I am still standing here. A place, a position that I always wanted to be. Words can express how I feel but showering my love for you makes me alive. I have become so much more a better person now. Is love a light for me? Yes, it is. A steady light glowing on my face everytime you are near to me . Just by seeing you from afar, I'd smile.
"What is love?" you might ask..It's a feeling in both of our minds and body.A strong passion and a chemistry one might say. To me, it is like the feeling of longing to be near and close to you all the time. All the long talks, boiling porridge about nothing or the laughter and sharing about nearly everything. Them eyes, just filled with devotion not wanting to imagine life without the other. Times that we do nothing together and still having the best time.Well, I think, you know the answer already.
Listen to your heart with open ears and you will hear the answer...it is very clear.
We often argue, but you just seem so powerful. I get distracted so often. Strangely, I never hated you ever before. I hated my attitude. My bad-tempered attitude. Yet, you seem very patient. Trouble is part of life and if you don't share it, you don't give the person who loves you a chance to love you enough. I always wanted to give you the best of everything. I might not earn or have SO much money but yet I'd still want you to have the best. It might not BE like THE BEST, but at least I know I've tried.
I feel like lucky that I could see the best out of you. I can see and feel that you have also change alot for me. I love the way you are now. Although, I do not like it when you are not eating.
This couple of weeks has made our relationship even stronger. Day by day, you are taking over my heart. Oh diary, are you already feeling geli with the way I express it?
The times we spent in the night market or going to different places to eat or being in the car attacking each another. Those laughters which money cant buy. Memories will always have space to be kept in my small lil brain. Like my pika always say "your puney lil brain". haha.
I am slowly beginning to understand you. I am very honest to you. Truth like 99%. Saying 100% is what an idiot would say. I love the hugging moments. The snores.
I have done so many mean things. I have said so many mean things to you too but yet you still love me that much. AWWWWWW.I feel like slapping my mouth. Dear diary, I am really very sensitive and emotional, I am sorry that you have to deal with it. I do not like that fact that you think too much sometimes. I do not like the whole negatively attitude.
Dear Diary, if I would to leave the world without a notice, I would not have any regrets to bring along for having my beeboo was already one of the greatest thing I have.
Often I give surprises to so many people or trying and trying to think of something or often plan. But with you, I feel like without planning, the outcome is always so beautiful. You suprised me so many times and deep down, i feel so blessed and love. I might not show you that I feel blessed and love but deep down in me, even my heart teared in joy.
Dear diary, this ink will never fade or it will never be gone for its typed and its on public. So, its not a secret for I do really love my beeboo.
I still have so many thigns to say. Why am i so long winded. gosh. To be continued.
Signing off with love,
nainai
the end
To be noted : I love my family very much too and certain of my friends. This diary was directly to the one I love. haha.wth.
WHAT?CNY IS HERE ALREADY. I STILL HAVE YET TO GET A NEW HAIRCUT.GREAT. Where is my choi san yeh went I need you? GENTING CALLS. weee~
Have a great chinese new year peeps.
To len and tien :
Happy chinese new year my ever loving peepotpie. Great panda and ama misses you. I really do okay. haha, piks, remember, you were in my chinese new yaer open house last year? through webcam! ahaha.hugs. take care yea. STUDY HARD BOTH OF YOU! kiss
Everybody's life has drama in it. A good many dramatic situations begin with screaming. You just cannot run away from drama. The more you avoid it, it gets worse. Sometimes questions often asked " Why your life got so many drama?" or you hear people gossipping "Eh, I pity him/her , she/he got so many drama".. This is an AISEH situation.
Dramatic experience is not logical. But, if you're not on somebody's shit list, you're not doing anything worthwhile.
I love my life. Therefore, I wonder why people often go "I hate my life". A life was given to you. You have a reason to be here. Dont hate the life, hate yrself for makign your life the way it is.
Like all the saying goes "appreaciate what you have now". Hell, I do. Do you?
The end.
Diary Post 1 (On Bee's Book) - I'd rather type.
Dear diary,
6 months has gone by so quickly. Yet, I am still standing here. A place, a position that I always wanted to be. Words can express how I feel but showering my love for you makes me alive. I have become so much more a better person now. Is love a light for me? Yes, it is. A steady light glowing on my face everytime you are near to me . Just by seeing you from afar, I'd smile.
"What is love?" you might ask..It's a feeling in both of our minds and body.A strong passion and a chemistry one might say. To me, it is like the feeling of longing to be near and close to you all the time. All the long talks, boiling porridge about nothing or the laughter and sharing about nearly everything. Them eyes, just filled with devotion not wanting to imagine life without the other. Times that we do nothing together and still having the best time.Well, I think, you know the answer already.
Listen to your heart with open ears and you will hear the answer...it is very clear.
We often argue, but you just seem so powerful. I get distracted so often. Strangely, I never hated you ever before. I hated my attitude. My bad-tempered attitude. Yet, you seem very patient. Trouble is part of life and if you don't share it, you don't give the person who loves you a chance to love you enough. I always wanted to give you the best of everything. I might not earn or have SO much money but yet I'd still want you to have the best. It might not BE like THE BEST, but at least I know I've tried.
I feel like lucky that I could see the best out of you. I can see and feel that you have also change alot for me. I love the way you are now. Although, I do not like it when you are not eating.
This couple of weeks has made our relationship even stronger. Day by day, you are taking over my heart. Oh diary, are you already feeling geli with the way I express it?
The times we spent in the night market or going to different places to eat or being in the car attacking each another. Those laughters which money cant buy. Memories will always have space to be kept in my small lil brain. Like my pika always say "your puney lil brain". haha.
I am slowly beginning to understand you. I am very honest to you. Truth like 99%. Saying 100% is what an idiot would say. I love the hugging moments. The snores.
I have done so many mean things. I have said so many mean things to you too but yet you still love me that much. AWWWWWW.I feel like slapping my mouth. Dear diary, I am really very sensitive and emotional, I am sorry that you have to deal with it. I do not like that fact that you think too much sometimes. I do not like the whole negatively attitude.
Dear Diary, if I would to leave the world without a notice, I would not have any regrets to bring along for having my beeboo was already one of the greatest thing I have.
Often I give surprises to so many people or trying and trying to think of something or often plan. But with you, I feel like without planning, the outcome is always so beautiful. You suprised me so many times and deep down, i feel so blessed and love. I might not show you that I feel blessed and love but deep down in me, even my heart teared in joy.
Dear diary, this ink will never fade or it will never be gone for its typed and its on public. So, its not a secret for I do really love my beeboo.
I still have so many thigns to say. Why am i so long winded. gosh. To be continued.
Signing off with love,
nainai
the end
To be noted : I love my family very much too and certain of my friends. This diary was directly to the one I love. haha.wth.
WHAT?CNY IS HERE ALREADY. I STILL HAVE YET TO GET A NEW HAIRCUT.GREAT. Where is my choi san yeh went I need you? GENTING CALLS. weee~
Have a great chinese new year peeps.
To len and tien :
Happy chinese new year my ever loving peepotpie. Great panda and ama misses you. I really do okay. haha, piks, remember, you were in my chinese new yaer open house last year? through webcam! ahaha.hugs. take care yea. STUDY HARD BOTH OF YOU! kiss
Monday, January 18, 2010
Clue
I guess I am just not the one you would open up when your feeling down or so.
Why do I dislike you so much?
1. You make me jealous
2. You are always the source that causes the problem
3. So what if you know my bee longer.
4. You are sayang-ing my bee
I am not jealous because of you. I am jealous that I did not get to see the bee the way you see - The way my bee always was. Sometimes I just wish I was you. You make my bee smile more then I get too. You comfort my bee all the time. Maybe if you wouldnt have give up last time, you guys will be just perfect.
Why do I always get the frowns the hidden secrets, or the clueless mind? Am I sensitive or maybe Im not.
Nothing is perfect and so is nobody is perfect.
Love is a true mental illness.
I am trying in all ways to not bother about you. I know you have nothing with my bee but I just dislike you. Since I have my own, I shal not complain. Close friends. I just have to be understanding and believe in fate. Thinking too much ruins everything.
Loving you was suppose to be a happy thing but why do I feel like im not making you happy. I feel like I am causing more pressure for you. Making your life even more dramatic.
I just need to get away for a while. take a whole day out. Just myself, and maybe cameron highlands. Top of the hills with wind whispering through my ears.
beautiful
Good morning monday.
Why do I dislike you so much?
1. You make me jealous
2. You are always the source that causes the problem
3. So what if you know my bee longer.
4. You are sayang-ing my bee
I am not jealous because of you. I am jealous that I did not get to see the bee the way you see - The way my bee always was. Sometimes I just wish I was you. You make my bee smile more then I get too. You comfort my bee all the time. Maybe if you wouldnt have give up last time, you guys will be just perfect.
Why do I always get the frowns the hidden secrets, or the clueless mind? Am I sensitive or maybe Im not.
Nothing is perfect and so is nobody is perfect.
Love is a true mental illness.
I am trying in all ways to not bother about you. I know you have nothing with my bee but I just dislike you. Since I have my own, I shal not complain. Close friends. I just have to be understanding and believe in fate. Thinking too much ruins everything.
Loving you was suppose to be a happy thing but why do I feel like im not making you happy. I feel like I am causing more pressure for you. Making your life even more dramatic.
I just need to get away for a while. take a whole day out. Just myself, and maybe cameron highlands. Top of the hills with wind whispering through my ears.
beautiful
Good morning monday.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Fearless
Oh, WHAT a breathtaking journey of twists and turns!
I am feeling really lightheaded. That same old giddy feeling. I believe that I am about to faint. Lack of glucose I guess ? Wait, lack of sleep sounds more accurate.
Everything is moving in such a breakneck pace. Chinese New Year is around the corner. wow. Time, just so amazing how it moves so rapidly. Oh time, the cradle of hope and wisdom walks before it, opportunity with it, and repentance behind it.
Interesting, it is to be in a position of stability. Still working on bad habits. Improving day by day. Rome wasn't built in a day. Miraculously, commitment is what I am in for good now. I love every single day. Yes, every single day.
Small arguments, fights, disagreements. Not a bad thing after all. Its a part of understanding.
*end*
Lately, I have been hanging out alot. Pool is love now. haha.
Frankly, I am not weird. But I feel so happy with my everyday just because of you. I never get bored. I do not know why. Damn it, you are just the light that is shining at me right now. I see you everyday. Makes me real happy.
I miss you although you just left an hour ago.
ahhhh
nights <3
I am feeling really lightheaded. That same old giddy feeling. I believe that I am about to faint. Lack of glucose I guess ? Wait, lack of sleep sounds more accurate.
Everything is moving in such a breakneck pace. Chinese New Year is around the corner. wow. Time, just so amazing how it moves so rapidly. Oh time, the cradle of hope and wisdom walks before it, opportunity with it, and repentance behind it.
Interesting, it is to be in a position of stability. Still working on bad habits. Improving day by day. Rome wasn't built in a day. Miraculously, commitment is what I am in for good now. I love every single day. Yes, every single day.
Small arguments, fights, disagreements. Not a bad thing after all. Its a part of understanding.
*end*
Lately, I have been hanging out alot. Pool is love now. haha.
Frankly, I am not weird. But I feel so happy with my everyday just because of you. I never get bored. I do not know why. Damn it, you are just the light that is shining at me right now. I see you everyday. Makes me real happy.
I miss you although you just left an hour ago.
ahhhh
nights <3
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Pure
Fairytale love. Too good to be true?
Why am I so afraid? Why do I still get all the brain irritation mumbling "nonsense" ? I am a freak when it comes to sensitivity. The suffer from indigestion of the mind. I oftenly think so much. Just a little silence or face reaction, I get so absurd. Damn, illogical.
Couples fight out of arguments, out of jealousy or whatsoever but we fight over having too much love and being afraid of losing one another. This is where "fate and believe" comes. I just want you to trust me. There is no fate, but your own fate. People pay for what they do, and still more, for what they have allowed themselves to become and they pay for it simply,by the lives they lead. It is all in the mind. Mistakes are meant to happen. Learn from it and try not to fall.
To live, it is not breathing, it is action.
I never believe I would ever find a love so full of passion and joy. Here I am, having the most wonderful lovely other half. My forehead is glowing. My smile is wider. Oh, love is a wildly misunderstood although highly desirable malfunction of the heart which weakens the brain, causes eyes to sparkle, cheeks to glow, blood pressure to rise and the lips to pucker. Do you not see how powerful you are against me. GREAT.
The ultimate test of a relationship is to disagree but to hold hands. No?
Everything I do now, I see a path. A light shining through me. I feel so in placed. Everything about you make me feel so alive. Gosh, I feel so happy. watthemotherfuck. I have been expressing so much and it all ends up in the same meaning of "jess, you are just so fking in love".
This sounds really over-reacting but what I need to live has been given to me by the earth. and why I need to live has been given to me by you. Oh yes, family comes first but my the other half is second.
I just can't wait for time to pass a lil faster. I just cant help thinking how annoying we are. It is just so cute. The only reason why sometimes I wanna keep a distant, is because I am afraid you will get bored of me and who knows, I might realyl be annoying to you one day. AWW
see you in a while.
kiss
Why am I so afraid? Why do I still get all the brain irritation mumbling "nonsense" ? I am a freak when it comes to sensitivity. The suffer from indigestion of the mind. I oftenly think so much. Just a little silence or face reaction, I get so absurd. Damn, illogical.
Couples fight out of arguments, out of jealousy or whatsoever but we fight over having too much love and being afraid of losing one another. This is where "fate and believe" comes. I just want you to trust me. There is no fate, but your own fate. People pay for what they do, and still more, for what they have allowed themselves to become and they pay for it simply,by the lives they lead. It is all in the mind. Mistakes are meant to happen. Learn from it and try not to fall.
To live, it is not breathing, it is action.
I never believe I would ever find a love so full of passion and joy. Here I am, having the most wonderful lovely other half. My forehead is glowing. My smile is wider. Oh, love is a wildly misunderstood although highly desirable malfunction of the heart which weakens the brain, causes eyes to sparkle, cheeks to glow, blood pressure to rise and the lips to pucker. Do you not see how powerful you are against me. GREAT.
The ultimate test of a relationship is to disagree but to hold hands. No?
Everything I do now, I see a path. A light shining through me. I feel so in placed. Everything about you make me feel so alive. Gosh, I feel so happy. watthemotherfuck. I have been expressing so much and it all ends up in the same meaning of "jess, you are just so fking in love".
This sounds really over-reacting but what I need to live has been given to me by the earth. and why I need to live has been given to me by you. Oh yes, family comes first but my the other half is second.
I just can't wait for time to pass a lil faster. I just cant help thinking how annoying we are. It is just so cute. The only reason why sometimes I wanna keep a distant, is because I am afraid you will get bored of me and who knows, I might realyl be annoying to you one day. AWW
see you in a while.
kiss
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