Steady

I like the word steady!.. "Steady sial, steady wei , steady yo". WADEVA! steady <3 .haha

Everybody's life has drama in it. A good many dramatic situations begin with screaming. You just cannot run away from drama. The more you avoid it, it gets worse. Sometimes questions often asked " Why your life got so many drama?" or you hear people gossipping "Eh, I pity him/her , she/he got so many drama".. This is an AISEH situation.

Dramatic experience is not logical. But, if you're not on somebody's shit list, you're not doing anything worthwhile.

I love my life. Therefore, I wonder why people often go "I hate my life". A life was given to you. You have a reason to be here. Dont hate the life, hate yrself for makign your life the way it is.

Like all the saying goes "appreaciate what you have now". Hell, I do. Do you?

The end.

Diary Post 1 (On Bee's Book) - I'd rather type.

Dear diary,

6 months has gone by so quickly. Yet, I am still standing here. A place, a position that I always wanted to be. Words can express how I feel but showering my love for you makes me alive. I have become so much more a better person now. Is love a light for me? Yes, it is. A steady light glowing on my face everytime you are near to me . Just by seeing you from afar, I'd smile.

"What is love?" you might ask..It's a feeling in both of our minds and body.A strong passion and a chemistry one might say. To me, it is like the feeling of longing to be near and close to you all the time. All the long talks, boiling porridge about nothing or the laughter and sharing about nearly everything. Them eyes, just filled with devotion not wanting to imagine life without the other. Times that we do nothing together and still having the best time.Well, I think, you know the answer already.

Listen to your heart with open ears and you will hear the answer...it is very clear.

We often argue, but you just seem so powerful. I get distracted so often. Strangely, I never hated you ever before. I hated my attitude. My bad-tempered attitude. Yet, you seem very patient. Trouble is part of life and if you don't share it, you don't give the person who loves you a chance to love you enough. I always wanted to give you the best of everything. I might not earn or have SO much money but yet I'd still want you to have the best. It might not BE like THE BEST, but at least I know I've tried.

I feel like lucky that I could see the best out of you. I can see and feel that you have also change alot for me. I love the way you are now. Although, I do not like it when you are not eating.

This couple of weeks has made our relationship even stronger. Day by day, you are taking over my heart. Oh diary, are you already feeling geli with the way I express it?

The times we spent in the night market or going to different places to eat or being in the car attacking each another. Those laughters which money cant buy. Memories will always have space to be kept in my small lil brain. Like my pika always say "your puney lil brain". haha.

I am slowly beginning to understand you. I am very honest to you. Truth like 99%. Saying 100% is what an idiot would say. I love the hugging moments. The snores.

I have done so many mean things. I have said so many mean things to you too but yet you still love me that much. AWWWWWW.I feel like slapping my mouth. Dear diary, I am really very sensitive and emotional, I am sorry that you have to deal with it. I do not like that fact that you think too much sometimes. I do not like the whole negatively attitude.

Dear Diary, if I would to leave the world without a notice, I would not have any regrets to bring along for having my beeboo was already one of the greatest thing I have.

Often I give surprises to so many people or trying and trying to think of something or often plan. But with you, I feel like without planning, the outcome is always so beautiful. You suprised me so many times and deep down, i feel so blessed and love. I might not show you that I feel blessed and love but deep down in me, even my heart teared in joy.

Dear diary, this ink will never fade or it will never be gone for its typed and its on public. So, its not a secret for I do really love my beeboo.

I still have so many thigns to say. Why am i so long winded. gosh. To be continued.

Signing off with love,

nainai

the end

To be noted : I love my family very much too and certain of my friends. This diary was directly to the one I love. haha.wth.

WHAT?CNY IS HERE ALREADY. I STILL HAVE YET TO GET A NEW HAIRCUT.GREAT. Where is my choi san yeh went I need you? GENTING CALLS. weee~

Have a great chinese new year peeps.

To len and tien :

Happy chinese new year my ever loving peepotpie. Great panda and ama misses you. I really do okay. haha, piks, remember, you were in my chinese new yaer open house last year? through webcam! ahaha.hugs. take care yea. STUDY HARD BOTH OF YOU! kiss