Odds

I used to feel the excitement of your return. What is happening? Changes do happen but I guess I'd never expect a drastic change like that.

Often I question myself "why do you even feel so distracted by it?" yet, I find it so hard to seek for an answer.

Time will tell. Is that the only conclusion there is? To me, things do fade away. There is a limit to everything. Toleration and patience is all I can swallow. Deep within me, I just feel like a rock, but a crushed one.

When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand.

The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.

Life is all about facing the reality and accepting the facts of it. Guess, it is not plain as it looks like. The uneasiness and the feeling of distress will always be there. Same plain oh crap.

We need not destroy the past for it is gone. If I can deal with it, why can't you? Difficult as it may sound, did you even try? Fed up is a close feeling that I am about to face yet I am not giving up on this friendship that we've build up together.

Love you piks

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Anyway, hello monday. I am glad that I have been making use of my time really wisely somehow. I miss my beetch.

Next week will be my most happiest week of all time. I am not going to gamble for a long time. Terrible money luring. How could I? Damn it.

Lennie is back and yes, I watched Twilight TWICE already. I miss lennnnnnnnnie. Why do I need to work? HAHA. stupid question. oh what the heck!

FB = Fucking Busybody <3

What's next? Malacca love.