This is it

This is it was great. I could imagine it would be a blast if it really happened.

I did not expect you to come. But you did. Somehow I felt comfortable. It felt like the times before we started. Those hidden smiles. haha. A smile costs nothing but gives much. OH, 2 more weeks. I would hold on to it but would you? What do you feel right now?

Sometimes I wish I could put my name there but I just cant. Oh well. "Passerby". I should have put something more normal. like. "anonymous". Simple ain't it. Surprisingly, I find this guy really unique in ways. You can actually feel his ego but somehow there is a soft side in him which portrays a balloon. If he would have a positive mindset, he would have done better. This is the first time I am actually judging on someone without knowing him in reality. Wait, I wouldn't even want to know him in reality anyway.

You called after so long. After 6 months. How do you expect me to react? Yes, I am still paranoid. Sometimes I do think about you, but, never in a good way. I do wish you would stay away from me, like forever. Just because, you freak the shit out of me. And you cheated. Oh my god, you have a girlfriend makes you unavailable PLUS I see the fucking engagement ring. "IF only I knew you first, things can change if you give me a chance". What do I look like to you? A relationship splitter? Eventhough I do not know your wife-to-be, I feel guilty already.

It would be my turn to say this to you "IF only I knew earlier you were attached, nothing would have started". You are the past. "We need not destroy the past". It is gone!

I think I am really sensitive to cold air. This is bad.

Bye.

p/s : I really do miss you